So feel free to read all my entries. The newest is
 at the top. There is pictures too, they are worth a look.

I know it's a lot of text, but it's a good way to make an internet more honest. 
If you don't feel like reading it that's fine. I have a nice journal for myself anyway. 

Wed-11-30-2000 - ran ran ran tanoshi na! Online and very grateful to be here!

Update - Online as of now! : ) Everything new, and several new updates and sections already in the works

Journal - Working my way backwords through the day.

Well. Obviously the first thing to mention is getting this web-page up online, I am very excited about this. Ironically that is the last thing that happened today.

Before that happened I was at my friend iisac and rachel's house across the street watching dexter's labratory. I have never seen it before and it was really exciting for me to see all the cool stuff. I loved that show. Iasac is still trying to get me into power puff girls.

before we watched that we saw mtv real world and I could see why debbie thought their house was decked out so cool. And of course, Mumbleboy's cartoons could be seen playing in the background on their flat hang-on-the-wall TV. This time it was 02 VS 03 which I think could win the award for the mumbleboy cartoon with the most followable plot ever. Most of my cartoons don't have much of a plot anyway. (there will be a flash-cartoon page of my stuff coming up in a future update)

before that we were doing sub-for-santa for 2 widows and their 5 year old orphan. We didn't have any information on the widows so we saved their part of the money for after we get the info. We had a group of about 15 people and it came to almost 300 dollars. That's almost a 100 dollar chrismas each! And when me and iasac and rachel were shopping she got all soft and spent some of her pocket money too so we could get her a fancy dress up set for her for 30 dollars. I also had a fun game where Iasac had to not look and name the charachter who's voice was playing. (from all the talking dolls in the toys section, like scooby doo and buttercup)

Before that I talked with sachika san and helped her through her assignment about muhammed's koran form her history class. And I got the Idea from her to make 1000 paper cranes for atsuyo's hospitalized husband. I am gonna try to do it as a community service project secret from her. Hey, wanna send me some paper cranes? ; ) I'll send you something special in the mail for free if you send me at least 10 my address is on the artwork page. Kind of wierd to introduce something like that in the first day of my website but it's for a good cause and I don't really need to rely on internet people to do this perticular thing.

(giving 1000 paper cranes to very sick people is a japanese tradition, and atsuyo is japanese and her husband is very much japanese culture.... so)

Before that I saw alyssa's boyfried and he was unusually nice, so I could see getting to be friends with him but that's okay. Still wierd because me and alyssa did date for a while but I'm not going to go on about that.

befre that I was working and I have alot of fun tutoring all the level 2 students. They are my favourites! But I also like level 1 + 3 too.

And before I was asleep and the electric blanket was warm.
and that is the end of this entry. 
**The other entries below are the ones while I was putting this very website together.

Wed-11-29-2000 - postponing becuase of dreamcast.

Update - reallly close to being online

Journal - calculus confusion ;) - it sounds like I am a teacher tutoring everyone but it's kind of an inacurate impression

I have to cut this short but I an writing anyway to keep myself in the habit beause nothing is stupider than a stagnant journal. espically if any one reads it.

I was tutoring someone in calculus tonight so I had to do that instead of some other stuff, which was fine. At first it was really hard because it was so simplified that my teaching of it cunfused him. So after probably 30 minutes of confusion, I had him very confuzed. Finally I went through and figured out how his teacher wanted them to do and it went okay for the next little while. I am gonna meet with the teacher soon to touch base on her teach style.

It was really scary becuase at first I was confused too because even though it was simple graph translaions. And i was still getting my bearings at first. I think I just needed to aclimate myself to math.

I just feel bad because I tutor several of my friends in japanese for free and do an awesome job, and I'll probably be tutoring sachika in english for free.

But when I kind of floundered with buddy and i talked to his mom afterwords, I tried to explain that it went a little rocky at first but I am sure it will go more smoothly later. But she just whipped out her checkbook, wrote me a 50 dollar check for 2 hours and scheduled the next appointment. I don't know if I should talk her down in price, or just pull my act together a little more. I can't be expected to be perfect on the first try, and I wasn't exactly presented as having brimming credentials. Oh well, they don't seem to cringe when they pull out the checkbook, she is a nurse and her husband our family doctor.

Oh, and my mother is tutoring him in spanish so.....?

I'm cutting this off and not gonna worry about it for right now. Tomorrow I meet alyssa's boyfriend and put this online.

Tuesday-11-28-2000 - sachika-san, race+culture, and octopus

Update - closer to being online.... no one is reading this update of course

Journal - kyou, wrighto sensei o tasukemashita. 8:30 kara 3:00 made gakko de hitarakimashita. wrighto san ni wa taitei tihenna life desu. Atsuyo san (wright sensei) ga totemo shinsetsude, ii hito desu, demo Stress to iroirona ookii mondai ga arimasu. sorekara, boku ga yoku tasukemasu. Kyou wa yokatta desu.

After school, which like I said is really my work, I met up with sachika san... I need to get a photo of her I guess. I'm always seeming to be friends with the japanese people. whoops. I guess that's kind of prejudice. I try not to be prejudice, in fact I fight against it. And I can confidently say that I'm not a prejudiced person. But in Utah it's so homogenous that it's hard to find friends that aren't white. sorry.

This is quite the stretch, but I think I was kind of a bit of an outsider in that way. My father was british, and without noticing it I grew up with a slight british on twist. My mom was always the wannabe jewish culture, and a new-yorker. So I grew up with a british accent and a very slightly different culture. Everyone hated me because of it in elementary school. I looked a little bit different because of my british, *espically* when I was young. I was called charly brown because I had a rounder head than all these skinny headed americans. ; ) And I had a very british nose. Both I'm proud of. I'm fine. So that is how incredibly homogenous it is in this small town 30 min from salt lake. But it's not racist here, we are a very loving community. School kids can just be very judgemental.

Anyway I was soap-boxing there. Sorry. I was talking about sachikasan. I guess I get friends because I can Identify with them a little bit more than everyone else because I understand some of their culture and language more than 99% of the people there. I can see us growing to be close friends. Well let me start from the begenning of our nice visit today.

Of course I was working at the high school. I work in a classroom at the back of the library. After school I saw her studying. She had her literature book open, and she was trying to decipher part of the arthur legend. I felt so bad for her because she had little kanjis and kana scribbled in over most of the words. I knew I must have taken her hours to do all that looking up in her dictionary. I could have explained the story to her in easy english and my crappy japanese 10 times in the time it took her to get throughly confused with it. So I'm gonna help her study and get through some of the tough times. Espically that old style english. How is she supossed to understand that??? It's like when I saw the miyazaki films. Mononoke hime was in old fashioned japanese or something. (I saw it in english later, great voice acting by the way) The only word I understood through the movie was the title and a few of the charachter's names. But when I saw his other movies like majo no takkyubin and Laputa, between the visual plot and the easy japanese, I could really understand whant was happening..... Well I keep wandering off my subject, aren't I?

Well.... The whole place I was leading to is, in short, Me and sachika found out we are the same religon. Which is very suprizing because we are't buddhist or shinto or anyhing. So even if she is completely alone from her culture, she is surounded by her religon. So now she has something special she never had in japan, I guess? A silver lining when she gets homesick, I bet. Well when you find out something like that, it's really a special moment. Like instant friends. But I'll be friends with any religon. Alyssa is catholic and I don't have any problem with that, in fact I hardly ever really think about it. I have another catholic friend who is seriously planning to become a nun and join a convent, isn't that exciting?

Oh, I have to add this. Today Atsuyo san said to the class: "You americans, thinking octopus is scary sea moster, but to japanese, we just see something delicous floating in the sea" It was very charming and halarious in a cute way how she said it. I myslef an neither hungry nor scared of octopus. They are far too magnificent and cute to eat, don't you think so.

**Oh, tomorrow I am going to write about where my japaneseness came from. And the popularity of the phrase "hang in there" as comparing between a few different languages. just to remind myself, because it is too late and big journal entry anyway for all my thoughts right now.

Monday-11-27-2000 - Lots of weekdays in the forecast

Update - close to being online, no point really to putting the update if it's not is it?

Journal - Just putting finishing touches and trying to start to get ready to be putting this online. SoI was playing dreamcast all day because I was tired.

I was tired because I kept waking up in the middle of the night. I think I was dreaming about a serial killer because of the episode of the practice where this freaky guy got off and I think It got into my dreams. I wouldn't describe my dreams as terrifying nightmares. I don't really have nightmares, but the last few days have been significantly nightmaresh for no reason. Which hasn't happened for a very very long time.

On saturday night I dreamed I was caught in the building where they were counting the stupid election votes, only instead of just being a bunch of bored people it was some big scary opium den and there was stuff like from clockwork orange going on, they were trying to re-programme my friend's mind and they had some scary hypnotic voice tape recorder. I got to the phone after alot of running around, and it was huge and red and I had to reconnect some wires to some other phone. Then the 9-11 lady - I wasn't sure if she believed me or not because the story was pretty farfetched but true. But then an officer started to break through the glass door with a chair. Then I woke up.

If anyone wants to know my political position after readiong about my election related dream, my political position is only that I think mostly all politics is dirty. And I really don't care to waste any time elaborating on dirty things.

11-25-2000 - Felt like popular. (don't worry - it's not true)

Update - this webpage isn't even up yet, so really this is old news anyway

Journal - I don't know if anyone really will be all that confused, but when I do an online journal, it's just as much for my benifit as also yours. So maybe I won't always just write what would be interesting to you it's just a normal journal. Only to be posted on the net. But I will try to be curtious and narrate with some sort of sense, but mainly journals are for our own memories you know. I am just letting the world take a peek into my life. I have always loved this online journal thing anyway. If you read something you like e-mail is enjoyed. I'm a sucker for a touching e-mail. (I hope I don't sound like I'm crying out for attention here)

Also - - I just thought... Whenver I start a journal the first few entries are always really long because I'm kind of trying to put in all the important recent events I want to record, and espically If I haven't been having a journal for a long time. The best part is to go and re read your old journals, you think when your writing that you will remember every little thing forever but I always have lots lots suprizes. I have an old web journal and some old written ones.... but I don't think I'll ever be posting those again ;)

Yesterday MyQ Larson came over. It is an extra special treat to get a special visitor. I enjoyed showing him around and showing him some flash stuff and movie stuff and my artwork... But the one sad thing is that even though show and tell catch up games are really great and everything. When someone visits from even just a little bit far away, it's like you are always playing catch up. I guess that if it's always a show and tell catch up game it means you need to see the person more often. MyQ is very hard to describe, but he has always been sort of an icon of a person... Very not full of himself, artsy without being retentive...? I was never good at descriptions.

MyQ visiting me

His self portrait

Later on I had half a conversation with Alyssa about Jared and how astranged I seemed to be from the start. (I hate it when my life sounds like a bad teen soap opera) Then after playing the jet grind radio for while I got another unexpected visit. Well not a visit, but it was a telephone from my friend mark syphus. I used to work with him when I worked down and the 2nd hand thrift store. (which working there was quite the expirence) It's neat because, aside from the fact that he is my friend and a cool person anyway, he represents all the stuff that I like that I don't really understand yet. Like how he understands breakdancing, and likes reggae and knows some cool DJ. And there's capoeda (I don't know the spelling) I guess it is comparable to a sort of brazilian musical folk dancing that is quite gymnastic or maybe acrobatic. I guess it's kind of brazil's version of karate. (obviously I can't really explain what it is...) It's nice to know that there are people out there who are your friends and you don't have to make your self feel like youre hounding them to be your friend. (not that I think that anyone I know is insencere or anything) So I am just happy to be having get-togethers with my friends.

well------ I have clipped all these thoughts and I haven't even gotten to plastic prom which was the 18th so this is going to extend to tomorrow and it isn't even online yet. Oh well, fine with me for the moment. good night.

mark's acrobatics

she really ate 2 corndogs

11-26-00 - sunday now

Okay, well I was just over at Ryan and Debbie. Debbie was eating a corn dog and we laughed really hard about me living in a bubble and teaching the divers under the sea. And we talked about garbage has a journal like this and I guess she is always crying about something. I don't really cry all that often if ever, except when I get really tired but that is really just my eyes watering, not exactly an emotional breakdown. And she ate dirt today.

If you traveled back in time to the 18th, then you could come to plastic prom. You were supossed to have a futuristic outfit, but if you really time traveled I think that would qualify you. This year's prom wase alot better than last year's. I thought last year's was great. But this one was the best ever. The decorations were great, including two magic projection screens with trippy video on it and the best was the golden robot and everyone's costumes. Everyone danced alot and had alot of fun. It was a very nice party. The pictures don't show everything but really I don't have to show evertything.

Kumori-chan had a great time too. He was the life of the party, and he didn't even have to dress up because he pretty much fit in normally how he looks. You know he has his own web-page. I guess he is kind of my personal mascot. He could be too cool for me but I think he has the kind of charity towards me that most ailien/inanimate-objects have.

(( Maybe I shouldn't have used "he" because MyQ was pointing out how Kumori-chan is pretty androgenous which is perfectly fine and normal sense he is an ailien/inanimate-object. But even calling him an "ailien/androgenous-object" is a bit asumptious. Well - I am just getting completley silly with that. The only one who knows any certintay on this for sure can be reached here ))

the golden robot

the group polaroid

they danced together

Alyssa, Debbie, and Me

we took this one special for the mumbleboy

Do you think if people see things on the internet that they are more likely to do them. I mean my local friends as well as people way all over the place will be reading this. Maybe it's like how people can print something in a book and then they think that it makes it true. Maybe reading something ofically on the internet makes people think it's offical and everything. Like mind control or something. well that doesn't matter.

Oh yeah, Debbie will you please make me one of your car mascots and give it to me? Thanks.

11-24-2000. - Hello

Update - this is the offline birth of my webpage, so everything is new

Journal - I was never any good at the first entry of a journal, i guess I have to get over it. Also please forgive my forsaking of spellcheck. It doesn't mean I'm ignorant or anything. As for my new website. Welcome to it. I'm sorry it looks so formal and seroius. I promise I'm not some gap-shopping latte-sipping person who takes them selves way to seriously and loves everything in black in white. I mean, I am a huge fan of Mumbleboy and Audiodregs so that should explain everything. I hope you like my website. It would be nice if it became a little bit popular, although it's not right for me to measure success in that way. I plan to add lots of different sections ito this web and I am gonna try and update as often as I can manage. Thanks a bucnh to mumbleboy for hosting and support by the way.